Reflections

I am sitting at Gloria Jeans now, enjoying some time for coffee and emails.

Sitting here, I suddenly realized how tired I am, how exhausted I have become. My eyes are droopy, my head feels heavy, my whole body is aching...nothing feels good. The most important thing: I have forgotten how to smile (from my heart).

Recently, my happiness is build on certain things. Some small things can bring a sparkle to my day and i will cheer up instantly. But if 1 small bad thing happen, my mood will take a 180-deg turn at once. Most often than not, my emotions will be built around 1 person.

As usual, a stupid misunderstanding sparked a argument between us again. As I lay in bed thinking the whole night, I cannot find any answer as to why we can quarrel over such a small thing and which does not even constitute a problem. Finally the answer dawns on me: understanding and communication. This is a difficult period, anything done and said is wrong.

My way of communication is too pressing. Too much Q are asked, too much that I want to know. And the more I cannot find out, the more i want to know.

His way of expressing is too ________. He wants to feel smooth to talk, feel smooth to share, feel natural to call. The more i ask/call, the more he escapes.

Maybe the 'old fashioned' way is still correct. Guys should chase after girls, girls must not turn around and chase guys.

Some thoughts for me to chew on.

Geri is in town

Yeah! Geri is in town.

My sister had flown into HCMC this morning for 4D3N, for a short break (before uni starts) and also to accompany me :)

i have already plan the activities, dinners, cafes we are going...hehehe...

Also, another thing to note: I re-start my fitness workout today, coz I checked into a hotel with gym (small but enough). Haha... in HCM, its hard to run outdoors coz of the weather and air pollution (unless u get up real early, abt 5am). So i had to use the gym.

Mood: Very very happy
Time on treadmill: 30 mins
Speed: 6km/hr
Inclination: 4.0

Small things

Humans are funny creatures...it is weird how we can get angry or happy over small things.

Sometimes, i feel really fed up and irritated, over the most trivial thing or a sentence. I will get into a pek chek and unreasonable mood, and argue with him.

Sometimes, the little things people do can brighten up my day instantly. Even if it is a small gesture or a sms, I feel happier and more cheerful instantly.

Then i realized....its actually all in the mind. Our brain controls our emotions and reactions. Whether to be happy or sad, 80% depends on our mind power.

As Anh a said, "Stay positive, think positively".

Back at home

Yeah, i m back home in SG.

Yeah, i feel happier and busier.

Yeah, i really love my home. Nothing beats my own home, family and frens.

Keke...must enjoy my short short stay in SG :)