OMG

OMG! This whole week is a 'discovering' wk for me. OMG :)

1. I realized that ppl ard me know each other long long ago! OMG!
Meaning > When i talk with frens in future, beware of wat i say, coz it might spread to another fren easily.

2. A mutual fren asked me suddenly, whether another fren of ours is hitched. I later confirmed this thru Frenster, which i just signed up. OMG! I had to know something abt my best fren thru another mutual fren.
Meaning > Can we be considered best frens? We cant even share good and bad things. Maybe its always be a one-sided frenship all along, or there is something seriously wrong with my character, hence i lost this frenship long ago. Wat i treasure may not be treasured by others?

3. After talking to frens, I realized that I m really behind times. No frenster account, blog is not updated, life is not as exciting as theirs. Our circle of frens have become so different since so long ago..different aims in life..I lost count... OMG..
Meaning > Maybe i m really out of their circle now, after browsing thru Frenster, this feeling struck me. A lost, aimless and useless feeling. I feel lousy. Wat i enjoy they do not, wat they talk abt, i dunno also. When did i become so detach from them? The last time i check my IC, i was the same age as them le.. maybe i took my steps too fast, too ahead of the pack till I feel so out of place..

4. I realized that i m the only one who loves to do spa, facial and other self-pampering stuff. Others would rather socialize and spend their wkends filled with grp activities. After talking to them, i realize that i m not doing what my age grp is supposed to do. OMG! How to fit into place?
Meaning > I m really lost..to be myself and have little/no frens or to be like them but lose myself?

OMG! I m really out of place. Feel like some kinda weirdo and clown, who is so out of place and time. Or perhaps coz i m different from them, that i lived my life too fast and too high. This is the price i have to pay and do i be myself or be like them and lose myself?