Love of my life

Seems to be stuck @ work today, every where also dead ends, every where also hit the wall...getting calls asking abt technical clarifications, getting impatient responses. Ya..its hard being the in-betw person :P

Frens, imagine a sandwich... You know 2 slices of bread, in between with ham, tomato, cucumber and lettuce etc? Well, i m the 'ham' now, while the 'others' are the bread!!!

Thinking of this, brings me to my tution. A colleague asks me, why am i working when i can survive on tution? Haha, ya hor, coz tut is unstable, this yr 'forecast' is gd does not mean next yr will be the same le. This yr is gd, coz i have 6 Sec 4 students and some little ones. Teach all of them at one go on Sun morn is very economical for me. Haha... i count my blessings for this.

Did a test once (forget wat is it called), and the results shown that i m cut out for creative jobs, such as art, media etc. Hahaaa..looks like i m in the wrong job!

So what is the love of my life?
1. Communication with inspired individuals, who teach me more things in life and society
2. Travel and enjoy the culture, enjoy the air overseas, enjoy the food and people there
3. Literature, always dream of going to Beijing/Tsinghua Uni to do a degree in Chinese Lit. Not this boring technical engi work...wait till i find a soulmate who would support me!
4. Work with people. not machines and equipment, endless budgets and ppl who would save little money for high amt of risk. Even when i shop for my things, i dun own every dollar and cents.
5. A carefree job, but with high exposure and a wide social circle. And ppl who dress up, look good on the outside and think hard on the inside.

Hmmm...a bit fickle hor..but i want to be true to myself, what i like and not wat i shld do. GRRRRRRRRR......I want to get out of this rut!