Some close frens and family have been asking if I am alright after they read my posts :P
Thanks for everyone's concern :) I am fine now, sorry to make all of you worry. Without all of u, I would not have felt better so fast.
I am feeling better than the past few weeks, not so moody anymore. Nothing disastrous happened actually, just that I need time to adjust and adapt to the new situation and environment. Some things which I used to do in the past cannot be done now. Just a small passing phase in life :P
I was tidying my desk at home last wkend, and chanced upon the calender on which I marked down the dates I was outstationed in HCM. OMG! Since last Oct till this March, I have been spending almost 80% of my time in HCM, and less than 1 week per month in SG :P No wonder Mummy and Daddy miss me so much.
For April, I will be in SG, and the next biz trip will be 12 May. I guess this trip will be a new and different experience for me, though I am going back to the same country. The working env will be different, colleagues are new, also a new working partner in sales. Even my life after work will be different. All these take another bout of adapation... :P
Oh..I will be posting photos from Melbourne trip and bday soon, but I want to keep the pictures a 'secret' until I am back in VN, coz some ppl have not seen my new haircut and I want to see their expressions first hand when they see me in person (instead of seeing thru photos). Hahahaha~~~~
Monday, April 28, 2008
Thursday, April 24, 2008
Monday, April 21, 2008
Since returning from HCM..
Life is different since 1 Apr... I am back in SG, away from VN, not working (for now).
To note the differences:
1. The air is cleaner and fresher, no more honkings of motorcycles. I also can understand the language ppl speak (in English or Chinese), no more incomprehensible signboards, I am able to order (independently) what i want to eat from the menu.
2. I am with my family and frens, able to call them out for lunches/dinners any time. No longer need to think what i do during wkends, no need to wait for ppl to ask me out, no need to worry when i take taxis.
3. I must get used to a different momentum and way of living. Not as carefree as before, not able to go out as and when i want, not able to go in and out when i like.
4. No more chatting on phone or sms with him. Not able to see him when I want, not able to talk a lot with him coz its just hard to chat over the phone with the limited time we have. Feelings must be kept until we meet again, kisses can only be given to our phones.
I guess this is the withdrawal period after being outstation for some time. A change in env, change in social groups and most impt, a change in lifestyle.
I need more time to get used. But by the time i am used to this, I will have to go back to HCM again...sigh...my life will reverse again :P
To note the differences:
1. The air is cleaner and fresher, no more honkings of motorcycles. I also can understand the language ppl speak (in English or Chinese), no more incomprehensible signboards, I am able to order (independently) what i want to eat from the menu.
2. I am with my family and frens, able to call them out for lunches/dinners any time. No longer need to think what i do during wkends, no need to wait for ppl to ask me out, no need to worry when i take taxis.
3. I must get used to a different momentum and way of living. Not as carefree as before, not able to go out as and when i want, not able to go in and out when i like.
4. No more chatting on phone or sms with him. Not able to see him when I want, not able to talk a lot with him coz its just hard to chat over the phone with the limited time we have. Feelings must be kept until we meet again, kisses can only be given to our phones.
I guess this is the withdrawal period after being outstation for some time. A change in env, change in social groups and most impt, a change in lifestyle.
I need more time to get used. But by the time i am used to this, I will have to go back to HCM again...sigh...my life will reverse again :P
Monday, April 07, 2008
Updates
Just came back from HCM last Tuesday, and am undergoing a transition in work, environment, everything....the only factor unchanged is my family :) Still so supportive and caring, and I am beginning to really enjoy and savour the warmth at home.
Work was not too smooth sailing some weeks ago, certain changes made me consider moving on. Finally, I have an offer and decided to give it a try. Same job scope, same country (VN). Just a different company and different colleagues. No more comfort zone, no one to really look after me, I have to learn to be more independent and survive in a foreign country with an incomprehensible language.
Personal relationship is not that fantastic. Some things are better to let go, my brain said so. But i wanna hold on to it, hold on to something so dear and close to me, my heart told me. Everyday is a struggle between my brain and heart.
Was I strong and independent in the past? Did i portray an infalliable image and make everyone think that I can make swift decisions and be firm? Maybe it is just a facade, coz only now, then I know how weak I am.Strong in work, weak in love > this is the real me. A close fren used to tell me, "Its ok. Because you are still a woman." Can it be explained like this?
Questions running through my mind...pictures of the future appearing in my mind...let me think carefully..
Work was not too smooth sailing some weeks ago, certain changes made me consider moving on. Finally, I have an offer and decided to give it a try. Same job scope, same country (VN). Just a different company and different colleagues. No more comfort zone, no one to really look after me, I have to learn to be more independent and survive in a foreign country with an incomprehensible language.
Personal relationship is not that fantastic. Some things are better to let go, my brain said so. But i wanna hold on to it, hold on to something so dear and close to me, my heart told me. Everyday is a struggle between my brain and heart.
Was I strong and independent in the past? Did i portray an infalliable image and make everyone think that I can make swift decisions and be firm? Maybe it is just a facade, coz only now, then I know how weak I am.Strong in work, weak in love > this is the real me. A close fren used to tell me, "Its ok. Because you are still a woman." Can it be explained like this?
Questions running through my mind...pictures of the future appearing in my mind...let me think carefully..
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