Just came back from HCM last Tuesday, and am undergoing a transition in work, environment, everything....the only factor unchanged is my family :) Still so supportive and caring, and I am beginning to really enjoy and savour the warmth at home.
Work was not too smooth sailing some weeks ago, certain changes made me consider moving on. Finally, I have an offer and decided to give it a try. Same job scope, same country (VN). Just a different company and different colleagues. No more comfort zone, no one to really look after me, I have to learn to be more independent and survive in a foreign country with an incomprehensible language.
Personal relationship is not that fantastic. Some things are better to let go, my brain said so. But i wanna hold on to it, hold on to something so dear and close to me, my heart told me. Everyday is a struggle between my brain and heart.
Was I strong and independent in the past? Did i portray an infalliable image and make everyone think that I can make swift decisions and be firm? Maybe it is just a facade, coz only now, then I know how weak I am.Strong in work, weak in love > this is the real me. A close fren used to tell me, "Its ok. Because you are still a woman." Can it be explained like this?
Questions running through my mind...pictures of the future appearing in my mind...let me think carefully..
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