Be myself

A fren, a dear fren, told me today: Dun try to please everyone lah, be yourself.

This simple statement brought tears to me, stinging my eyes. Plus I experienced tumultous things over this terrible wkend. Everything just adds up.

Ya, human gets too complicated, thinking and guessing wat others say. Contemplating and reading every single word too much, it makes human r/s more complex and ppl unhappier. Maybe we will be happier if life is simpler. Ancient sages have the definition and idea of an ideal society, where everyone loves everyone, treats ppl like their own, 老吾老以及人之老，幼吾幼以及人之幼, we dun make guesses abt wat ppl think, we do not think too much abt wat ppl say.

Now, in society and my own family, we do not practice that. We guess each other's feelings, we play with words, we will misunderstand and scold ppl w/o asking properly, we will not appreciate ppl ard us, we do not rem their bdays and be nice, we do not even bother to treat them sincerely and with truth. We hide our feelings, we lie, we schemed and we bicker. This is the society we are in, and it makes me sad. Sad because we do not forgive and forget, we rem wat ppl do to us and rem for life, we do not appreciate small things ard us. We do not even treasure the little things life has brought to us.

Today is a sunny day, the wind is blowing and the trees are swaying. I open my windows wide, close my eyes and feel the breeze. Surprisingly I can even hear the rustling of the trees, chirping of the birds. Nature brought a lot of good things to us, why is it that we, humans, do not slow down, close our eyes and listen?? Listen to the sounds, listen to your heart. What does it tells you?

My heart to me, 'Shihan, you are tired, you have too much to bear. Why can't you be urself, no hate, no love, no regrets, no needs, no desire? Only when you can achieve these, you will be a happier person. Ya, art of talking and being politically right is impt, but wat do you really want to do? Who are you actually?'